Hey crazies, its me again and i know its been a while since i came on here but i have just been through an ordeal. So anyways back to the crazy at hand. As you can see from my header. Today's topic is going to be a little dark. So this is a thing i have been thinking about because at the stage we are in, suicide is a little on the high side and its really sad because i am sure everyone that has ever had someone special to them that has committed suicide wishes they could have done something different or said something different to save the person.
Has any one ever been threatened by someone they love that said person used suicide as a threat? I am asking this because this happened to me recently and it has messed me up seriously.
So to fully understand and grasp the situation i am in right now, you have to know the full story. so i am going to rewind and get you all updated from the beginning.
So today's crazy is about my sister--my older sister. We are going to call her Jenna, Jenna has always been boy crazy, from when we were kids. She had her first boyfriend in junior secondary school and from when she was young she had always been dramatic; no one could talk to her without her flaring up. So fast forwarded to years into the future and we are all kinda adults now and Jenna is dating her on and off boyfriend of three years. I never liked the guy because he looked shady but i never really judged because i didn't really know him. All i knew about their relationship was that he was a little violent and we all pleaded with her to leave him.
Jenna refused and she stayed with him all of her college years, After school, she finally got the courage and dumped his ass but i could tell that he had messed her up. There was something different about her, she suddenly dated different guys, i don't even think she was interested in love anymore, they were all meaningless to her. Now Jenna meets a guy called Jerry and by chance i meet him too, this is just a fresh relationship that i don't even understand but somehow she tells everyone in the family that she is pregnant.
She also has this believe that a baby at the age of 25 with no father in the picture would be the best thing for her, but no one else saw it that way. Everyone was besides themselves and i tried to reason with her.....she finally gave in and did the best thing for the situation which was to abort the baby.
This made Jenna sad....she shut down on everyone and then she started drinking a lot, i blamed myself because i talked her into the whole abortion but i was trying to be rational, we live in a country where you'd be crucified for such a thing and we don't really have the means for a baby. I did what i though was best.
It might have been the wrong thing but i only did it out of love.
Jenna didn't see it that way, she hated me and my other sister, she blamed us for her problems and that's how the whole suicide threat came up.
She sent a message, saying she was tired of the world and leaving wouldn't be such a bad idea. That ripped me up to shreds even though a part of me knew she wasn't going to do it but the fact that she even thought about it still haunts me till date.
So guys, i am going to stop at this point because i don't know how this will end; all i know is that she is getting the help she needs for her depression and alcoholism. A lot of people don't get the chance to get help and its a problem we are facing.
So crazies, its always important to watch what you say and who you say it to and don't hurt the ones you love because it is the little things that destroy the biggest mountains.
Till next time, crazy you later.
